Have I always been a missionary?

I was thinking about that the other day that in just a couple days it will be one year from when I opened my call on Halloween and it is nuts. It has been over a year since I have been out of high school... It is weird to think about. I remember the night that I opened my call like it was yesterday... or three lifetimes ago.. .I´m not sure which :P there is this time while I´m living here, there was a time when I lived in California and we had to try to find Spanish speakers among the gringos, and there was the MTC, then I think there was some other life before that... jaja It is weird almost to think that I haven´t always been a missionary. Honestly I don´t have the slightest idea what is going to happen... If there is a holiday or not... I basically forgot that Halloween was even there, jaja But I will find out this Thursday and I can write more about it next week!

I will find out tomorrow if I am getting transferred (it is possible there are 19 new elders coming in) and I have been here a long time. But there is no way to know until tomorrow. Then next week whether I get transferred or not there is another chance that I get transferred and there will be another 25 new missionaries coming in (don´t know how many will be elders or hermanas). So it is possible that I  could change or I could just stay here and finish training Elder Mossman. We will see. But I bet Elder Fiabane will be training. 

We have been having troubles finding people who want to listen to us. We can find people that will listen to us for como one lesson then they will never be there or not receive us anymore. So that makes it even more difficult because our zone leaders come to our area and find people and say, oh your area is great the people do receive us. But we do find people who will receive us just not keep taking the lessons and progressing.... I feel like I am doing something wrong or something because I am not meeting the expectations that I have and it is driving me crazy at times. I feel lost and don´t know what to change. We are trying to follow all the capacitaciones and everything but I don´t know. 

I don´t know if I have a favorite lesson to teach investigators per say. I would say that the best lessons are the ones when we really find the persons need and teach to it. You can feel the spirit testifying to the truthfulness and you can see the hope and peace it brings to them! Those are the best lessons. I wouldn´t say that we really have anything fun to teach our lessons... I should think about things that I could do to make the lessons more fun, maybe people would want us to come back more if it was like that... I don´t know. 

I love you guys a ton and can´t wait to hear from you next week! Love you all and miss you all a ton!!!